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my mum is telling me a story about the gay man, who was bullied and mobbed by his boss and then fired because of his sexual orientation, it was on TV yesterday. She said she hopes that the case will get more publicity and the man will find justice in court. that was really an important talk with to me, because she doesn’t know I’m gay, and moments like this makes me think I’ll be ready to tell her about it someday, and she’ll be ready to hear the news.

I’ve been thinking about quitting smoking. I can stop doing it, like for a month or even six, but this time I’m considering doing it for real. I like smoking, I like sitting on the balcony and smoking, I like standing outside the building during breaks between classes, chatting with people and smoking. I know it’s not good for health and that should be a reason to stop, but it’s not. I know that I should want to stop just for myself, but I don’t. I had started thinking about it after a new friend of mine said to me ‘do not smoke, stop smoking’, then I said I like doing it. It’s true, but I’d like to stop too, but to do that I’d like to have someone for whom that would be important too, who would support me, who would appreciate it and when I realized it I realized that I really need someone in general.